Performance

So it all comes down to that one day in your professional life when people sit alongside and have every right to tell you what they think you can do better or what they think you did well or what they think etc etc etc.

Well, its hard for a person like me to sit down and sit through all of this, however this time around, it was a different experience. I felt nice!! Nice, that I could stay calm and deliver my lil speech in a nutshell of my high impact areas, of my time in the project, of the things that I have done brilliantly, proud of my achievements.

Nice also cos I did hear people say a hell lot of positives to me..
To single me out and call me a 'Leader'! To call me someone who learns constantly.  To be a very hard working person!! Its absolutely amazing to hear your friend(who also is your manager) to say that. It means a lot! You know everything that is being said is genuine when it comes from a friend!!!

Areas of improvement, as my name suggests I am pushy and people told me to stop doing that. Exactly!!! How can I??? How will I?? May be I won't May be I will!!!
Like someone said "take it or leave it".


All in all I m glad it was NOT that bad at all!!!

I wish in relations too we could sit down and have a round of feedback sessions too, rather than name-callings!!!

I Wish..

and I really wish
 Love will make it alright!!

Songs In My head

and the Trend continues...
It probably defines my state of mind....sorry not "probably"...it definitely speaks volumes of my state of mind.

I am strong...strong
I am invincible ...invincible...
I am A WOMAN!!!!!!!



Nazar na lagey!! ;)

You...

...Win some and Lose some!!!

Well losing doesn't come that easily to some!!! Ahem ahem thats ME!!!
So this is charged up - Part 2.
Out of excitement, decided to participate in indoor games.
It was fun till we were practising and winning games during practice.

It was totally different when it came to playing the tourny!!

So I played against Isha.
Whoever (wise or otherwise) says  it "Never underestimate your opponent" that does make sense after a loss (whatever!!!).

So the game was of TT.
Best of 3.
First game - I won
Second game - Isha Won
Third game - I was 10 -3 and let Isha sneak the victory off my hands so sweetly.

Well, whats lost is lost!!!

I intent to take it one step further.

Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice
Practice Practice Practice Practice ....infinity!!!!
 

Charged

Up...
Totally totally Charged up!!!

And WHY not!!!
When a lil bit of craziness and madness is added into your daily lives, One does feel charged up!!

So I wanted to be a lil Brave(read - Crazy) this month.
Decided gotta do something wack wack Whacky!!

The first one was Lezim dance.
Ganged up with all these young(ya it pains to say that but true it is) dancers at work and formed a team of 12 ppl.
Told the choreographer Bina (Panchal) that I won't chew anybodies brains but will just come and dance.

So didn't go for 2 meetings where they decided what songs they are gonna choose and who all are gonna participate.

Song - Deva Shree Ganesha (Agnepaath 2)
What a song !!! when the output goes into those amazing amplifiers and you hear the enhanced and a super rocking version of it, you go Woooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!

At the practice sessions, people were picking up steps on steps...and I was just being myself, cracking jokes, giving high fives and just enjoying myself...whereas the choreographers Bina and Bhavesh and Deepika (and a lil bit of all of us) were racking their brains as to what steps are we gonna do, how are we gonna synch up, what do we wear and who was missing more steps.

Till the morning of the day of the final event, one of the other gals and some of us were lacking energy, making mistakes and just not getting the synch right.

In the end, we just needed a minute to chill and some sweet tempo of our song playing on the whoofers and speakers and we went berserk.

Final Show, we performed like there was no tomorrow.
Grace, Steps, Smiles, Syncho and lots and lots and lots of energy.

Got millions of complis and till date continue to get it.

"You were simply rocking"
"Felt like dancing with you'
"That was crazy....but lovely"
"Have you learned classical dancing"
and many many many more

and the whole gang said:
"What an energy yaar"

One rocking feeling that lasted for a whole of 2 weeks and continues to bring smile on my face!!!



 

Finally!!!

I am talking!!! yeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh to my blogspot!!!

I can't believe its like the fag end of the year 2013 and this here is my first blog!!!

THis year has been well lets just say busy with a big B.

First and foremost I earned my promotion. Yep, I earned it alright(no matter what my manager has to say)! Yep EARNED it, worked hard, crazy hours, day and night. Travelled travelled travelled and that too from one city to another (pune, malad and mahape... I wish there was atleast one trip to the UK). Dragged the kids wherever possible, made the husband work crazy hours and finally started liking the city called PUNE. Well I always loved the weather there just the slow start and siesta times are not my cup of tea.

Finally the big shark called LOAN has eased out on us. WE managed to get a balance in our lives without having to cut cost at every second. Having said that I think we actually have to start looking at the accounts again!!!

Chickoo(now being fondly called as Cuckoo) has grown, quite responsible, has attained a certain level of maturity, very sensitive and at the same time is the most adorable gift that the Lord has given me. Affectionate and a beauty to adore. I think one hug and smile from her eases all the pain. A true reflection of me in all the madness, naughtiness and playfulness. You my sunshine, I pray, May your madness and affection stay with you forever. Amen!!

Baba, he has started school, that is what is new with him. He cried his lungs out the first week of schooling. The teacher and the helpers love him, well it will be a surprise not to love the lil devil!!! The start of second week he is settled in a pattern, wakes up early, asks for his brush, demands his tiffin box and waves bye on his way out. My champ, a loving hug in the mornings from you, is wonderful start to my day!!!

Sunshine, in all the running around has been quite supportive, running around, balancing work life and sometimes spending more than required hours in front of the lappy than us. It feels normal to have you back ;) full-time at home.

Meme has been ill. My biggest heartache. I don't feel myself. I know for sure we will get out of this. I will. You will. We will!!!!

My brothers, the eldest and youngest, I hope and pray if they have worries, they share it with me.

The good part of the year, I did manage to meet most of  my friends. Some sanity there. Trish, Hans, Anne, Anklet, Anjie, I love you guys. I hugged my Sister. That felt great!!!  These are some of the strongest Girls I know. They amaze me ALWAYS.

For ME,
the best part of the year is yet to come. My cous sister and friend, who will be down soon, waiting to meet her. Waiting for Xmas season to start, to spread its warmth and Love!!! I pray!!!

Terrible

Terrible Terrible!!!!
Friends mum is in desperate need of blood. I posted an announcement in intranet site and guess what???? Not a single person replied. Not Even one. I had to the ultimate thing that I am good at, T.H.R.E.A.T.EN more like overpowering, I had to catch hold of people and request them to donate.

When will we get over the 'someone-else-will-do-it' attitude??
Donating blood - is a noble cause, a life saver, its healthy and safe.
What if YOU need blood and this happens to you???

On the other hand, I got help from this great site Indianblooddonors.com, a fabulous site(and I have registered myself) and what a response. Though the area in which I wanted donors, I got just one person, but the guy( I m truly a fan of his) readily agreed to come n donate blood. He was at santacruz when I spoke to him in the afternoon and at 9pm he reached the blood bank and 9:30pm I get an sms from him, confirming.

Sharvari my friend was prompt too. The second she got the mail, she spoken to the kin of the patient, and the next day she donated as well.

Tell me, why won't you donate blood??

Complicated

...feelings.

You are in your late twenties (ok, I shall continue to say this even if I m 50+, so don't get started with me) mother of 2, and some serious agenda and plans for urself.
And the Agenda, weight-loss-program.
Plan, start on some 7daydietthatmakesyoulose7kgsinaweek thingy, yup thats right.
And why does it so happen, the minute YOU go on diet, everyone around you is losing weight. Anklets lost so much weight her newly bought clothes are now loose. Some of the chicks you saw before going on maternity leave(and you thought to urself, she is gonna be forever FAT, and I will come back super-slim and u give a smirk to the gal) have lost amazing amount of weight and now they look at u n give u that smirk.
Why does it so happen that when u want to lose weight u only see super-thin gals?

Coincidence

In this beautiful weather, went for coffee with a colleague (Ashwini - she has lovely beautiful straight hair and they are looooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnggggg. Tell me how do you maintain them??). Just started talking about this n that. I never ask this, but I did, this time around.

Me : So when do u get married?
She : December
Me : Oh don't tell me, December nn is the date
She : december nn
and we both giggled like 2 school kids, who found out that our birth-dates are/were same. But this ain't birthdays we are talking about, this is much much serious.
Hmm, come to think of it, I have to take her for coffee again tomorrow, she didn't tell me about her wedding year.

What is it???

is it 'Bin baadal barsaat' ??? or 'bin mausam barsaat'??? ?I know I can google and I will.
Its october already ya.
It poured last evening, and I went home completely drenched. I m completely against any excuse of not enjoying the rains, so I opted to walk up the distance to home rather than rick it up.
And its pouring now.
What to do :) ???

K.A.R.O.K.E

We did Karaoke in goa. When it was time for me to sing, I just couldn't think of any songs. And now, when I m bak at work, I would like to sing:

• Pal pal pal har pal har pal kaise katega pal har pal (munnabhai)


• Chan chan, chanan chan chan, mann gaye kyon (munnabhai mbbs)


• Nanhi pari sone chali (I know I know, a lullaby, but its chikus favorite song, so)

I still wanna sing

• Phir chidi raat baat phulon ki (Baazar)


• Ruthey hue hoon kyon (adnan samis album)


• Yeh zameen ruk jaaye aasman ruk jaaye, tera chehra jab nazar aaye (adnan samis album)


• Huzar iss kadar bhi na itara ke chaliye


• chod do aanchal zamaan kya kahega


• aaj kal paaon zaamen pur nahi rukte mere

and I wish there were some english songs to sing along
especially of whitney houston,

• and I will always love you


• from this moment (Shania Twain)


• I m ready (Bryan Adams)

Happens to me all the time...

Here I was religiously coming to work(but hving no work at all). Being sincere, in terms of staying at my desk for hours together, hoping, sooner or later, I would get work. And no work came my way. Infact, my seniors would cut the topics short just when they would know I was gonna start talking about work.

And now guess what?? Just when I decided to go on a holiday (for a week to Goa, ya I know I m gonna have a rocking time, thats if my babies let me) there has been buzz about projects coming in. People with similar profile as me are required. I just hope when I come back ONLY then they start taking people onboard and not before or during my vacation please. And I get some decent work.

Blocked Mind

The maid decided to call it quits!!!
Do I need to say more???

Silly

What do you do when you see a tall, ffffffffffaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrr, bald, lean, handsome dude walking like a Greek God, in your office premises, gives you a look ( a killer for that matter) and walks away into the office, whilst you are taking a walk(after lunch) with your friend????

Have you ever extended your walk and checked the elevator area, dude's not there, checked the staircase, found him, you walked up the stairs, pretending to tell your friend that your manager is in this building(instead of the other building where you sit) n you have come here to meet the manager?? And then seen the dude disappearing in the training room. Your friend says Trainee hai, and you say really???
Disappointing and so not fair, he is just a trainee and you a Veteran here.

Well, anklet and me did that today ;) followed a greek God, only to find he is a trainee here.

25 minutes to go

nope not talking about the MLTR lyrics. (Though, on 2nd thoughts I have all but forgotten the lyrics, I should start listening to music) . Nothing to do with the song. Nothing to do with the number, but ya something to do with the time.

Mornings are such busy times, especially, when you have to catch the office bus, which seems to come a couple of minutes earlier, only when you are late.
Me, I always manage to leave the house at the nth hour, correction, nth SECONDS. Distance from home to the stop, about 2-3 kms. Time it takes to reach the stop, if you are a snail like me, then 45 mins of leisure walk or half an hour of fast walking(which includes few mins of leisure walking too), or 15 mins of jog(few mins of fast walking...and a whole load of splash of mirk on my outfit...ya its thanks to the muddy dirty road). The bus reaches the stop ideally by 8:02am give or take 3-4 mins. The ideal time to leave the house, one would say be 7:30 and what time do I leave???

Today I left the house at 7:45am. Yes, you heard me right, 7:45 am. If that was the time when I left the society it would still have been ok. And then I tried catching a rick, no luck. So I thought to myself, if I keep looking for easy options it wouldn't work, I challenged myself and sprinted (read - Jogged) away and guess wat??? the bus was on time 8:02 and I had reached a good 30 secs prior to that. Lucky Me. But then ofcourse thats ME!!!!

Blessings

This year can be conveniently marked as the year of GREAT H.E.L.P.

During my early days of pregnancy, friend from the society Aanchal, used to give me a lift till the office. She herself was pregnant so that was a blessing in disguise.

I didn't find a good gyneac closer to where I stay so in the early days of my pregnancy I decided to go to my earlier doctor. Her clinic is close to where I work. It was convenient to go for checkups from work. But as the days were closing in I grew more and more paranoid about delivering somewhere else. If not for friends like Anjie, I don't know what I would hv done.
Anjie came to visit me the day I was admitted and then the next day she got me b'fast. Shiny and her mum got me food, lunch n dinner and that too a complete meal. I am anyways a big fan of malayali food. The very next day, Lakesh got me food. And thats how I survived my 3-4 days in the hospital. The day we were relieved, Shiny's mum invited us for lunch and asked us to rest and leave in the evening.

And now that I have started work and can't wait with chiku till her school bus arrives, we have Hitesh the lil boy who comes in the morning to pick up chiku for school, we have Hitesh who comes in the evening to pick chiku for some fun n games n play.

Thank God for Friends and their help. Its a huge Blessing.

M.I.S.T.A.K.E.S

And I have been making mighty ones and countless of them.

Sept 13th, 2011
Came back from work exhausted. Was happy to see the kids happy. Just when I was in the lift, a lil boy told me 'Aunty I have just dropped Chiku home'. And I was so glad to hear that. Finally, she is making friends and going out to play on her own. I took lil sunny, and fed him. He threw up some milk. I went to get a mop. I was just cleaning, just before that I instructed Chiku, not to walk on the wet floor ( she is prone to falling on the floor all the time). She walked down, without bothering to see where she was going, picked up the glass that had fallen on the floor, just close to where I was cleaning. I got so angry, I gave her a spank.
She looked angrily at me and screamed: 'I was only picking up the glass'.
I didn't know what to say.

Sept 14th, 2011
Finished all the chores before time today. Decided to leave for the office bus a little early so that I don't have to run for it and in turn catch the bus sweating like a pig. As usual, I took chiku along with me to drop her off in the building corridor where her other friends gather(shall I say wait for her), and I left for my bus not before giving a peck on her cheeks and asking her to stay put. She in turn said: ' I also want to do it'. She gave me a peck too and hugged me and I waived her bye. About couple of hours after I reached office, mum called me and was scolding me for leaving chiku alone. She told me that there was nobody with her and she started to cry and she was walking here n there aimlessly. Fortunately, my brother went down to check on me instead found Chiku wandering about and crying her lungs out. I am sure she must have been so upset and sad and in her own words 'I was sooooooo alone'.


Dear Chiku
I am sorry, for yesterday and today, and for all the days that I have been unreasonable and lost my temper without understanding or realising what it would do to you.
I am sorry for making you upset and scolding you, even when I know that you are still a baby and I cannot and shouldnot expect you to act like a grown-up.
I am not a bad mother and I am trying really hard to change myself.
I will try harder to keep my temper in control and to ensure that you are alright at all times.
luv always,
Mumma

Its NOT a Sin

(Pre-text : I have resumed work after a break of 6 months. Its been a week I have still not been given any work. So people are curious to know what am I upto when I am rattling away at my keyboard.)


Somebody (to be precise a Single unmarried gal in her late 20s) asked me
LS : So what are you upto? Any project?
Me : Nah, none. U know how it is out here ya?? Its just been a week for me, how will they give me work whilst people are waiting for ages now.
LS : So how do you spend time?
ME : I keep writing something or the other or reading.
LS : What are u reading??
ME : BLOGS
LS : Any interesting blogs
ME : Yup. Baking blogs and cooking blogs and mommie blogs.
LS : oooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh OMG. These are not my types
ME : Yup. They are my types not yours. But wait for sometime and you will be on my side of the world, and then we shall compare some notes about food and children and rashes and diapers and growing up.

'So what' I ask. I don't have to feel guilty about what I am doing, don't make me feel that way!!!
I am a mom of 2 and I have my interests in place.
I love to cook.
I love to bake.
And reading what other mommies are doing in their world is not a SIN.
Trying to be a good mother is not a SIN.
Growing up from being a party-goer to a mummy-dearest is not a SIN.

Faith

hits technology, or technology hits faith. Don't know which one is this?

Yesterday, on my way back from work, I saw a small place(my eyes hv never travelled there), where there were hounds of people gathered and listening to some guruji's speech. There was still a thin stream of ppl flowing into this gathering.

What probably shocked me was this group of people were meticulously seated and in complete silence infront of a 40" flatscreen(I think it was bigger than 40") . I could clearly see the baba on the TV. Wow, technology has reached far n wide.

4th last day

at work, before I go off on yet another Maternity leave :)
Things that I did or happened to me today:
1. I woke up at 3am, couldn't sleep, so in turn woke up mummu made her drink water and put her back to sleep (well, super-mom that I am ;) I assumed if I was thirsty the kid must be equally parched). Couldn't sleep after that, so went about doing chores like folding clothes, arranging the wardrobe, finding odd baby clothes like few caps, some dupattas that will be useful in wrapping the baby. Completed the task and went promptly back to bed at 5 am completely exhausted.
2. Whilst waiting for a colleague to join me in our noble car-pooling exercise to reach office(I hate waiting, especially, if I have to wait for my driver, colleagues or some other people I am least bonded with) I ended up chit-chatting with 6 year old Pratishtha and answering her boundless questions amongst the many some were, Why are you late? why is the other aunty late? was Her baby crying? Is she going to go with you in your card? I don't know when my exams are but I will pass and go to std 3, Where is your daughter? has she gone to school? was she late? My bus comes quite late these days etc etc. Oh jezz, this gal talks a lot.
3. I just came to know one of the very few good looking guys Rohit Loke, has quit its his last day today. How sad !!!
4. As I entered my floor and swiped my card, I had my previous project GSM opening the door for me, and greeting me so sweetly 'a very Good morning'. Thats a complete surprise!!!(sign of a disaster)
5. I got chiku's name logged onto a new beta site for kids called thefungle.com seems to be like a cool site
6. Came back from an hour long lunch that too at the canteen (quite an achievement, but ya somedays ur just plain lucky that you have so much to talk about)
7. Got Prompt approvals for my M leave (quite surprising!!! ya somedays people have nothing else to do ;) )