You know

..what makes me feel proud???

Both of you!!

Both you lovely, tiny people.
My babies!!

Mumma loves both of you and adores you too!!

Luv
Mumma

Fascinations

...and I don't know where to start from. I really don't!!!

I know that you are all grown up my baby, my Champ!!! and though at such a tender age you are an amazing lil boy!!!

At 5 years, you surprise us. For starters, your drawings has such intelligence that I am in awe!! I think, I should be systematic and store all of them well least I should henceforth -- I might lose a precious one and then it will be too late to make memories.
You once drew an Owl. I would have thought, a kid of your age would just-draw-an-owl. A lil above the owl was a cute moon and that prompted a Q&A session.
Me : Baba, whats that?
Baba : What mumma?
Me : Baba, whats that?
Baba : Thats an Owl. U se Ullu.

Me : Baba, and whats that?
Baba : thats a moon na mumma, you cann't see (with a cheeky smile)
Me : and why did you make a moon
Baba : because I wanted to show that owl comes in night na mumma. You don't know  (with a cheeky smile).


There are times when I think you have outgrown the "hugs" bit and then you surprise me everyday. You run in my arms and ask me to pick you up and then you tell me what you did during the day - which necessarily means how many chocs you ate, how many waffy you ate, how many biscuits you ate, what you drew and if you did eat your tiffin or not.

All I am glad of is that I get one more day to hold you and dread the day I won't be allowed to hug you. Thinking of All this at the same time!!

There are times when you just press your cheeks against my lips and ask me to give you uncountable muchies. Then I am rewarded with one peck on my cheeks!!

You have a real special bond with Cuckoo. Most of the time I can hear both of you giggling and laughing and playing and there are times when I see you fighting. But its just for a fraction of time.

Jealousy is something that keeps you on your toes.
On cuckoo's birthday I was scanning through some baby pix of Cuckoo and You were crying so bitterly cos we didn't look at any of your pics. It was funny then. However, when cuckoo explained that we were looking through her pix Only cos it was her birthday, you automatically declared that it was your birthday the next day and that we will be scanning your pix as well.

You are cute and chubby and I love to cuddle you and hug you and kiss you. You my baby are gonna grow up so quickly and before I know it you will no longer be the tini Boy I know but a big boy.

I hope you grow up to be a great guy and There's so much love always in you.

Luv
Mumma

Performance

So it all comes down to that one day in your professional life when people sit alongside and have every right to tell you what they think you can do better or what they think you did well or what they think etc etc etc.

Well, its hard for a person like me to sit down and sit through all of this, however this time around, it was a different experience. I felt nice!! Nice, that I could stay calm and deliver my lil speech in a nutshell of my high impact areas, of my time in the project, of the things that I have done brilliantly, proud of my achievements.

Nice also cos I did hear people say a hell lot of positives to me..
To single me out and call me a 'Leader'! To call me someone who learns constantly.  To be a very hard working person!! Its absolutely amazing to hear your friend(who also is your manager) to say that. It means a lot! You know everything that is being said is genuine when it comes from a friend!!!

Areas of improvement, as my name suggests I am pushy and people told me to stop doing that. Exactly!!! How can I??? How will I?? May be I won't May be I will!!!
Like someone said "take it or leave it".


All in all I m glad it was NOT that bad at all!!!

I wish in relations too we could sit down and have a round of feedback sessions too, rather than name-callings!!!