Performance

So it all comes down to that one day in your professional life when people sit alongside and have every right to tell you what they think you can do better or what they think you did well or what they think etc etc etc.

Well, its hard for a person like me to sit down and sit through all of this, however this time around, it was a different experience. I felt nice!! Nice, that I could stay calm and deliver my lil speech in a nutshell of my high impact areas, of my time in the project, of the things that I have done brilliantly, proud of my achievements.

Nice also cos I did hear people say a hell lot of positives to me..
To single me out and call me a 'Leader'! To call me someone who learns constantly.  To be a very hard working person!! Its absolutely amazing to hear your friend(who also is your manager) to say that. It means a lot! You know everything that is being said is genuine when it comes from a friend!!!

Areas of improvement, as my name suggests I am pushy and people told me to stop doing that. Exactly!!! How can I??? How will I?? May be I won't May be I will!!!
Like someone said "take it or leave it".


All in all I m glad it was NOT that bad at all!!!

I wish in relations too we could sit down and have a round of feedback sessions too, rather than name-callings!!!

Shaken

Dear Cuckoo,

My darling cuckoo, I love you very much. A hell lot actually!!!
I can't begin to tell you how proud you make me feel!!!

Just this Ganpati, you along with your friend Lavanya decided to dance on "Kala doriya" and it was so amazing to watch you dance on the punjabi number. Your confidence and beauty is to die for!! and I feel immensely proud of you!!!
Though, I might scold you time and again for being so straight forward and taking decisions independently, the reason is I am worried that you will stop asking me for things like every child does. There are things that you do these days which leaves me happy at times and I worry at times that you have actually become too independent.

At almost 9 (yep just 9 days left for your birthday as I write this) you have already started making big decisions for yourself that you wanted to go tuition, may be its your fascination of going to a new place/teacher to learn. I can already tell that you are going to be a fiercely independent gal once you grow up and I wish I could stop the time and sit with you and talk to you and hold you and hug you.
I wish I could hear you sing all the tini tiny poems you used to sing when you were a toddler. Now you sing songs with an amazing class -
1. Let it go - Frozen
2. A thousand years - Christina Perri
some lovely hymns
3. Enna Kodupaen - Tamil
4. A gift to you

Your voice has this ethereal beauty that leaves anyone listening to you mesmerized.

We are seeing some tough times (as I write) and in all these days/months, I have seen you hold me more often than I have held you. My hugs to you have been more for myself than for you. You have sensed my disappointments and sorrows and have kissed me to wipe my tears away.

You have shown me amazing amount of strength!! I wish you wouldn't have had to mature so quickly.

You have already taken the ownership of guiding your lil brother while you yourself are so young and need guidance. I have seen you pampering the lil boy so much. He feels loved and cherished because of you. I have seen you group hugging when you are left out of hugs but never complain or cry for attention cos of the lil devil. You read to him and that's the most cherished memories he is ever going to have. You are nurturing a truly special bond and I pray to God that you both may continue to grow your bond stronger in his blessings.

I see you smile in the most difficult situation and I wish I could learn more from you. And then I feel how could I have landed you in a situation which tests your strength? You are still small, you are not even 10 years and you put up a brave face when the time demands.

You have been my strength and you continue to be stronger every day.
No matter what happens Mumma loves Mummu very very much.

God Bless my cuckoo.
Love always
Mumma







PS: This is NOT an attempt to join the bandwagon of the stardom like Narayan Murthy, Prakash Padukone etc.

PPS: If you google this time frame, you will find many celebrities have written letters to their lovely daughters.

PPPS: Their daughters are all grown up women actually. On the other hand, YOU my cuckoo are still a lil butterfly.